Saturday, July 18, 2015

Turning Point

Hello blogistas!

Almost over six months since I dropped by my little writing space here and I can say I am in a very happy place in my life right now. Being 25, single and exploring every possibility out there that is offered to me is just overwhelming.

A few months back I was super scared and kind of depressed with my life and kept wondering where I will get from there. Cheesy as it may sound and moreso to write this down, I can really, like really say that life doesn't stop for anybody, even for me the least. All I was lacking at that point was mere perspective and some pushing to go beyond.

I am writing and sharing this down so as to inspire and maybe try to fill up 5 minutes worth of boredom you are feeling right now. Kidding aside though, the past six months was worth enduring for, patience has grown on me and being positive all the time blossomed on me. I was unemployed, still staying with my mom, kind of keeping myself from the outside world and not socializing much, quite the picture of an adult on a mid life crisis. Days passed on that I keep thinking and worrying what is going to happen to me. I filled in the void and I did busyventured myself and tried to fill in my days with the Nurses Training program in a nearby city. From there I tried more and decided to push it on with the career I envisioned in my mind when I took up my degree five years ago. Let's say that I was sailing on new waters, I was back then jumping from one job to another in the call center industry which gave me a comfort zone whereas plunging back in on the medical profession job was nerve shatering. I totally recall the first day of my training and I was putting in a lot of pressure on myself to the point that I can feel cold beads of sweat on my forehead. Gladly I have survived that four months worth of training.

As the days went by, I was fervently praying and asking for luck to stay by my side during these times. I walked in on offices and handed in my applications and waited patiently. Then weeks after that I have a couple of interviews from the organizations I wished to work at. I was overwhelmed. I felt very lucky to be considered for such positions because the competition was tough and it proved me that nothing is too late in life to start something as long as you give it a try. I was excited and had received positive feedbacks from the organizations, soon after I decided the best between them and went for it. I cannot say that this part of my journey is a closed one but overall is just an encouraging turning point in my life and merely a paragraph in the chapter of my life. I discovered that I can be more of what I thought of myself can be, that when I take up the challenge and not back down, I can be better than what I am used to be. I am still in a continuous search for a greater high in my life. Something that again will scare the shit out of me and push me to be better for my future and goals. I really wanted to share this to all of you and glad that I didn't let my doubts and fears get the best of me. If you are going through a very tough phase of your life right now, recollect your thoughts and keep in mind that this too shall pass.

xKathleen <3

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

College Flashbacks






Hello blogistas! 

It's been a while again since I've shared a snippet of my life. Lately we have been doing some big clean up of our house and we have to throw out stuffs that aren't really that useful anymore. One thing I have been putting off a lot is throwing some of the college stuffs that I still have. I know, I know, I'm a pack rat! So very nostalgic for me though that I found these! Basically these were the notes that kept me up and very late in the night doing research and drug studies. I just flashback and think that 'Whew! I didn't think that I'd survive! 3 years of doing these and couple of large notebooks that were filled with my handwriting basically undertsanding what a drug does.' I am just happy too because if I didnt put in that much effort I would not have been successfull in pushing on and making it through. I've come to realize as well that I need to be more of myself like I was back in college. Pushing on through, wading through large waves no matter how big they are, as long as I focus and keep my eye on my goal. I was struggling back then always asking if I can do it and I am struggling right now thinking if I can survive the reality of life too. Right now all I need to do is take one step at a time, no matter the journey and eventually I will get there!

xKathleen <3